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[26 Feb 2006|02:54pm] |
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This weekend was wonderful.
I have been out in Big Bear for the past few days at a friends cabin. I cannot say enough about how good this weekend felt. There are the obvious reasons such as huge snow ball wars (at age 22 =D) and endless partying, but the best parts of the time had a lot to do with the subtle elements.
A lot of the people I was up there with, I really do consider friends. However I had not spent any amount of time with the group in a long time for various reasons. I thought them too dramatic and generally untrustable. This is of course mere excuses for believing none of them actually wanted my company anymore (a faulty assumption i often make far too quickly). It was so great to be with some of these people again and have a genuinely great time. No drama, no bad blood and funny enough no sense of being unliked. The snow ball wars were something I will not forget anytime soon. Also, playing Presidents and Assholes, Fuck you and Kings makes me realize that drinking games are socially fun, but hardly effective for me. I think I'm going to start eating nachos and drinking energy drinks at parties, because beer just doesn't do shit anymore.
I left the mountain with my ride home at five in the morning. Driving down the hill listening to drum and bass and watching the sun rise. Over tired and happy, it was a strong reminder of the mornings after raves. Back at 17, I felt far older than I was. Now at 22, I can't help but feel younger than I am. I don't know how that one works out, but it is certainly true that times like these make me realize I have some growing up to do.
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| I hope you enjoy Valentine's Day |
[14 Feb 2006|09:43pm] |
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This isn't Valentine's day
This is Single Awareness day...
as I'm too fucking aware of the fact I'm single..
I thought I was above such petty poutiness...
I was wrong : |
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[08 Feb 2006|11:44am] |
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ALIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIVE
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| Dum Dum de doo |
[07 Feb 2006|01:20am] |
Mogwai - Mr. Beast is coming out soon, but I have it already
my recent favorite late night listen...
do check it out when it comes out...
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| I suck |
[04 Feb 2006|04:23am] |
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Crazy // Gnarls Barkley by Gnarls Barkley
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I am the worst human being
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| Waking up |
[24 Jan 2006|09:25pm] |
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I feel like i'm just waking up, and it's 9:19 pm.
A strange day. Most of it was spent exhausted, without the energy
or will to do much other than read.
Yet here I am, at 9:19 and I feel so alive.
I broke into a massive giggle fit a moment ago playing with my amazing Beatrix kitty. She loves flashlights and I love her. She chases the flashlight to all corners of my living room so manically. There was something about that moment. I fell on the floor giggling, seeing everything all at once.
I feel like the time has come. Great and beautiful things are coming. I don't know why, I can just feel it.
I have awoken.
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| Neato quiz stolen from Denise'y |
[13 Jan 2006|01:27pm] |
1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
2. How much cash do you have on you?:
$72
3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR" feel free to change it.
Bore
4. Favorite planet?
Mercury
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
Katie
6. What is your favorite ring on your phone?
Saul Williams, bitches
7. What shirt are you wearing?
Jungle cruise Summer 2005 shirt
8.Do you label yourself?
A drunk
9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing:
Vans
10. Bright or Dark Room?
dark
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
A great friend
13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
I was drinking beers with Matt-o
14. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
Great!
15. Where is your nearest 7-11?
less than a block away (wouldn't have any other way)
16. What's a word that you say a lot?
shite, booze, "grits"
17.Who told you they loved you last?
My mommy
18. Last furry thing you touched?
no comment
19. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past three Days?
Let's see..in three days I've had 35 drinks
20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
none at the moment
21. Favorite age you have been so far?
19 and 21 are tied
22. Your worst enemy?
i have no enemies that i am aware, other than chuck norris of course.
23. What is your current desktop picture?
scarlette johansen
24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
"See you later tonight"
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able
fly, what would it be?
Fly all the way!
26.Do you like someone?
A wee bit : ) (entry coming in right after this one)
27. The last song you listened to?
Limp - Fiona Apple (shut up)
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| Spell your name Jason |
[09 Jan 2006|06:05pm] |
yessss...from last friday night..
perhaps this is gross, but i found it funny...
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| New Years |
[01 Jan 2006|02:48pm] |
HAPPY NEW YEARS!
Spent mine at a party at Bob and Amber's house. Party was great, but I must admit the day itself was not too much fun for me. I started to feel really ill at 2j's earlier in the day and just was not in the best of moods.
The worst part had to be the predictable midnight kissing every one did, and sitting there trying to fix the cd player for the first five minutes. I did not get a hug or even a friendly "happy new years jason" for a few couple of minutes. It was a really lonely moment or two.
The rest of the night turned out fairly fun.
I am now sort of apprehensive about this year, but I know I want it to feel much better than the first moments of it did. Call me superstitious, but I often find parallels between how I spend my New Years eve and how the rest of the year turns out. First resolution then is to not put too much weight into this superstition.
So here we go, 2006.
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| The War over Christmas is over...and we lost : ( |
[24 Dec 2005|05:33pm] |
Damnit, despite all of the unique effort we as liberals put into making sure this didn't happen, it appears there will be a christmas afterall.
Bill O'Reilly, Sean Hannity and the rest of the goon squad over at Fox News may have won the war this year, but who knows what next year will bring.
I will not rest until there is no christmas. Fuck I will not rest until there is no December 25th at all. So if you'll excuse me, I'm going to go enjoy my neat o presents and awkward family interactions.
Oh and Santa Claus, Frosty the snowman, Rudolph, Charlie Brown and every other symbol of Christmas
Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays and a new year to you all...
Jason <3's you
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| me and the mormons |
[22 Dec 2005|03:05pm] |
I have the most awesome mormon missionaries in my neighborhood.
I really do like talking to them.
(NO I AM NOT CONVERTING)
It really isn't so much a matter of conversion with these guys, we just discuss religion and theology. It has been a very informative experience as to the actual beliefs of a mormon, and I can only hope that I have had some effect on them as well.
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[22 Dec 2005|05:03am] |
Sigur Ros is a good friend at 5 in the morning...
So is a Steinlager
I wish sunlight would stay away...just for a few more hours...
No dreams of death tonight subconscious
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| Reoccuring dream |
[21 Dec 2005|02:09pm] |
I have been having this incredibly similar dream the past few nights. I will be carrying on with whatever is happening in the dream and then suddenly, I will be either hit by a car and die or in a car accident and die.
Last night had a new extension to the dream. I carried on as a ghost for the days after my death and saw peoples reactions. Then came the time for my funeral. People began to spread my cremains at some location, and as I looked down on my cremains I slowly felt myself disappear from existence. It was not a bad thing, it just how things were.
And then of course, I woke up.
Unsettling, or maybe not?
I am not sure at the moment
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| Awesome 2k6 |
[19 Dec 2005|02:25pm] |
One more final to take this evening. The easiest of the bunch.
Tomorrow I present my transcripts to CSUF and begin to register
for Spring '06. It is hard to believe, but my minor in Sociology
OR Political Science is complete. I suppose that is the positive
side of staying at a community college for a year longer than expected.
I was able to complete a few 300 level courses while only paying $12 a
unit (while having incredible teachers I might add). I will be back to
graduate this spring, which is something I have not done since the
informal graduation from Jr. High.
Auditions for the CSUF radio station are held in the fall, which means
I will not be to potentially start for a semester. This does not disappoint
me entirely, as with all of the clubs on campus I will be joining I doubt
I will have a shortage of on campus activity.
It is somewhat awkward to be excited about attending a school I will
only be at for a matter of a year and a half. Granted I could decide on
staying there for the rest of my undergraduate work, but I am still
driven to transfer to Berkeley before the completion of my BA. If I am
this excited about CSUF, I think I am going to have a heart attack upon
going up there.
My fingers are quite sore from playing the bass. It is a pleasant pain though. I remember for years occassionally going to a friend's studio and playing instruments with the guys. I always enjoyed the callouses I would leave with. Now I have that feeling all of the time.
I have a few auditions lined up for early next year. OC Weekly and Craigslist are my new best friends. So many cool things to involve myself with. It is refreshing to have the confidence and the drive to pursuit even my most minute interests. I have found a few places in the North Orange County areas that have open mic nights, and I think I will be making some appearances that will be quite memorable. I have the details worked out, but it is going to be sheer prankery as only Jason could provide. I'll keep everyone posted on the good ole Myspace.
The agenda is quite clear. I've been a very active person recently and I know from experience I am my happiest when I am busy. Somewhere during this new activity I still have to find time to read/work out/hang out with random friends, but I have no doubt I will get there.
One step at a time: my new mantra
It feels so good to be moving...forward...or anywhere...
I'm getting there.
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[12 Dec 2005|04:58pm] |
Stanley "Tookie" Williams,
As a citizen of the State of California and The United States of America, I am very sorry.
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| late night thought |
[11 Dec 2005|05:04am] |
I know people don't get to pick their own nicknames
but if i could, i think i would call myself Cholo
because I'm tough like that
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| Academia |
[04 Dec 2005|01:38pm] |
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MLA (or APA) Citation can suck a butt
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| Saturday the third |
[03 Dec 2005|04:06pm] |
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meh |
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TV on the Radio - Poppy |
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Weird night last night.
Weird vibes.
Drama is everywhere, I am no longer naive enough to believe
any different.
Couldn't quite sleep enough today.
Wish I had the nerve to sleep until 4 pm these days, but I do not.
Must wake up and do something, not sure what it is.
it's 3:04 am right now in Baghdad.
Something ought to happen, something new.
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| FUUUUUCK |
[01 Dec 2005|12:58pm] |
LOST ON HIATUS TIL JANUARY? !?!?!
That's like a fucking month!
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